being here

there is a reason for being here. whether we fathom it out or not ... the reason - or reasons - still exist.

I have a suspicion that it is a many faceted story. we are here to learn and grow and share and be selfish and be selfless. all of it.

and I believe that there is an underlying reason - to find the way to be happy - despite all the challenges and heartaches we endure. finding our way to happiness, no matter what

this is, in my very seldom humble opinion, the main objective ... to find peace and harmony and joy within the maelstrom that is life on earth

I am sure it can be done. I would love to be able to master it. when I was younger, I would struggle for days or weeks and sometimes even months, to get through some pain, some hurt, or some perceived slight by another - especially if I felt that I was being invalidated and not 'seen' or 'heard'

slowly it gets better. I can almost process my way through some hurtful stuff in an hour, or an afternoon ... depending on what has happened and how good and resilient I am feeling

and seldom do I do it alone. I am blessed to have wonderful friends who can hear me and understand me and can remind me of what I have temporarily forgotten

and that makes me happy ...

which is the main aim of my journey ....

happiness 

is there a better aim, I wonder

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