I am here to ...

For so many years I have been trying to uncover my reason for choosing to come to Earth, because I have not been very clear about my role in this lifetime.
I know that everything I have done and everything I do each day, is exactly what I came here to do - if ever I was supposed to do something else, I would have done so.

I did not get very involved in the Japanese disaster recently, because firstly, I seldom turn on the TV, so I did not get to see any live footage. I watched a 6 minute you tube clip - a very surreal 6 minutes - looked so much like a Hollywood production. The other reason for not making an effort to see some live footage, stems from not wanting to be focused on the drama and the trauma of it. I was criticized about this last week, and have contemplated the whole scenario for days and what follows is what I understand about me and my role on the planet.

For some weeks before the earthquake and tsunami, I seemed to be on an emotional rollercoaster. One Friday morning, I got ready to go to gym, and then was feeling so overwhelmed with emotion that I changed my mind, got almost ready for work - and then felt that I needed to sleep some more. There was only 40 minutes before I was due to leave, so I set the alarm for 30 minutes, climbed back into bed fully clothed and slept. Woke up with the alarm and went to work.
A colleague popped into my office shortly after I arrived and told me that Japan had suffered an earthquake. I said I knew that - it was old news - it had happened on Tuesday. No, she insisted - it was happening right now and there was also a tsunami. I went onto Facebook to show her the posts from the Tuesday, but she was adamant that there was a new huge quake with the huge wave ... people were dying!

Now, the odd thing for me was that I could suddenly breathe again - it was as if I had been holding my breath for weeks. Such a relief to breathe again. Of course, this made no real sense and I could not understand why the two things seemed to be connected for me.

On Friday morning, I sat down to meditate and pretty soon after I relaxed, I connected with an awesome energy - and I asked who it is? I was given the name Archangel Michael. Well, I will not bore you or myself with all the questions that popped up for me at that point - because for sure I have never connected with an Archangel before (that I recall, anyway) and of course I am so often skeptical when people say that they do - it is like ...um well, if YOU say so  ... and my bullshit monitor ...oops I mean my discernment monitor goes completely wild - you just gotta be kidding yourself because you sure are not fooling ME! I am far too bright to fall for that sort of malarkey!!!

I sat with all that going through my head and eventually accepted what I was sensing, and I then I asked for some information about why AA Michael would want to connect with me?
I was told that my task is to be focused on the beauty, the magic, the joy, the blessings, the effervescence, the Love, the Peace, the harmony, the unfolding of all that is awesome and wonderful. That is my task ... to see the beauty in every single thing ... every. single. thing. No exceptions.

Me, being me, had to then ask about the Japan thing - and in an instant I felt nauseous and very ill, as if I wanted to purge my body of all that horror and pain and anguish .... and I felt as if I had been abandoned by that beautiful energy in that instant.

My reaction was - well, of course - that AA Michael stuff is just bullshit - all beauty and bliss, and then when I ask a "real" question about stuff on the planet, he just disappears.
However, since then I have been able to understand a whole lot more. Of course I was not abandoned. It was pointed out to me that what happened was that in order for me to connect to the trauma and drama, I have to change my vibrational frequency, which is what made me feel ill.
I have always had the opinion that we are not supposed to know everything that is happening on the planet at any given moment - that when we have the level of information that is flung at us daily, it becomes information overload at times. I still see some validity in this opinion.
I believe that about three months or so before we transition, we agree on Soul level that it is time - the actual 3 months may not be accurate, but we all know for sure that many people start saying goodbyes in many little ways which is only understood in hindsight after they die unexpectedly ... for us, unexpectedly ... not for them!

What I seem to connect to - and is borne out with the Japanese disaster, is that I am working with those Souls who are about to transition - in those days when all of a sudden they realise that they have agreed to go and are starting to say ...Oh my Hat! I am really going soon! ... I seem to connect with that energy and hold them in their sacred space as they make that shift!  THAT is my task .... THAT is part of why I am here ... I hold that sacred space for shifting. And that is why I could breathe again when the disaster happened and they shifted. My job was done. I had completed my task. There are over 6 billion people on the planet. Surely not every single one of us is there to stand by in horror as  disasters unfold? Surely there are folk like me who are performing a somewhat different task?

I reject the criticism that I am wrong in not sitting and weeping ... I see the joy, the beauty, the wonder, the awesome-ness of it all. If there was no-one falling, there would be no chance for another to offer a helping hand. It is all about balance (which is really quite funny when I am talking of falling LOL)... it is about those who help before, during and after the crisis. It is about some being distraught and others being able to radiate Love and support. I know that all is well. I know we are walking the precise path we have chosen. I know that no matter how it looks, there is balance in it all. Within the moment of crisis, there is opportunity for growth on a Spiritual level, and those who need to do the hand-holding, get the precise opportunity that they have called forth.

I am here to be Me. I am here to do what my intuition guides me to do. I cannot conform to what another thinks I "should" be doing. I know that I am not getting it wrong. I know that focussing on the beauty in every situation is what makes my Heart sing.

and I know for sure, that my task in this lifetime is to discover and uncover my Heart. And I am doing it perfectly .....

‎"If there were no beauty in the observer... then he would not find beauty outside. The mere fact that beauty is seen... proves that there is beauty already present in the state of being the observer" ~ Shantanand Saraswati


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