I am here to ...

For so many years I have been trying to uncover my reason for choosing to come to Earth, because I have not been very clear about my role in this lifetime.
I know that everything I have done and everything I do each day, is exactly what I came here to do - if ever I was supposed to do something else, I would have done so.

I did not get very involved in the Japanese disaster recently, because firstly, I seldom turn on the TV, so I did not get to see any live footage. I watched a 6 minute you tube clip - a very surreal 6 minutes - looked so much like a Hollywood production. The other reason for not making an effort to see some live footage, stems from not wanting to be focused on the drama and the trauma of it. I was criticized about this last week, and have contemplated the whole scenario for days and what follows is what I understand about me and my role on the planet.

For some weeks before the earthquake and tsunami, I seemed to be on an emotional rollercoaster. One Friday morning, I got ready to go to gym, and then was feeling so overwhelmed with emotion that I changed my mind, got almost ready for work - and then felt that I needed to sleep some more. There was only 40 minutes before I was due to leave, so I set the alarm for 30 minutes, climbed back into bed fully clothed and slept. Woke up with the alarm and went to work.
A colleague popped into my office shortly after I arrived and told me that Japan had suffered an earthquake. I said I knew that - it was old news - it had happened on Tuesday. No, she insisted - it was happening right now and there was also a tsunami. I went onto Facebook to show her the posts from the Tuesday, but she was adamant that there was a new huge quake with the huge wave ... people were dying!

Now, the odd thing for me was that I could suddenly breathe again - it was as if I had been holding my breath for weeks. Such a relief to breathe again. Of course, this made no real sense and I could not understand why the two things seemed to be connected for me.

On Friday morning, I sat down to meditate and pretty soon after I relaxed, I connected with an awesome energy - and I asked who it is? I was given the name Archangel Michael. Well, I will not bore you or myself with all the questions that popped up for me at that point - because for sure I have never connected with an Archangel before (that I recall, anyway) and of course I am so often skeptical when people say that they do - it is like ...um well, if YOU say so  ... and my bullshit monitor ...oops I mean my discernment monitor goes completely wild - you just gotta be kidding yourself because you sure are not fooling ME! I am far too bright to fall for that sort of malarkey!!!

I sat with all that going through my head and eventually accepted what I was sensing, and I then I asked for some information about why AA Michael would want to connect with me?
I was told that my task is to be focused on the beauty, the magic, the joy, the blessings, the effervescence, the Love, the Peace, the harmony, the unfolding of all that is awesome and wonderful. That is my task ... to see the beauty in every single thing ... every. single. thing. No exceptions.

Me, being me, had to then ask about the Japan thing - and in an instant I felt nauseous and very ill, as if I wanted to purge my body of all that horror and pain and anguish .... and I felt as if I had been abandoned by that beautiful energy in that instant.

My reaction was - well, of course - that AA Michael stuff is just bullshit - all beauty and bliss, and then when I ask a "real" question about stuff on the planet, he just disappears.
However, since then I have been able to understand a whole lot more. Of course I was not abandoned. It was pointed out to me that what happened was that in order for me to connect to the trauma and drama, I have to change my vibrational frequency, which is what made me feel ill.
I have always had the opinion that we are not supposed to know everything that is happening on the planet at any given moment - that when we have the level of information that is flung at us daily, it becomes information overload at times. I still see some validity in this opinion.
I believe that about three months or so before we transition, we agree on Soul level that it is time - the actual 3 months may not be accurate, but we all know for sure that many people start saying goodbyes in many little ways which is only understood in hindsight after they die unexpectedly ... for us, unexpectedly ... not for them!

What I seem to connect to - and is borne out with the Japanese disaster, is that I am working with those Souls who are about to transition - in those days when all of a sudden they realise that they have agreed to go and are starting to say ...Oh my Hat! I am really going soon! ... I seem to connect with that energy and hold them in their sacred space as they make that shift!  THAT is my task .... THAT is part of why I am here ... I hold that sacred space for shifting. And that is why I could breathe again when the disaster happened and they shifted. My job was done. I had completed my task. There are over 6 billion people on the planet. Surely not every single one of us is there to stand by in horror as  disasters unfold? Surely there are folk like me who are performing a somewhat different task?

I reject the criticism that I am wrong in not sitting and weeping ... I see the joy, the beauty, the wonder, the awesome-ness of it all. If there was no-one falling, there would be no chance for another to offer a helping hand. It is all about balance (which is really quite funny when I am talking of falling LOL)... it is about those who help before, during and after the crisis. It is about some being distraught and others being able to radiate Love and support. I know that all is well. I know we are walking the precise path we have chosen. I know that no matter how it looks, there is balance in it all. Within the moment of crisis, there is opportunity for growth on a Spiritual level, and those who need to do the hand-holding, get the precise opportunity that they have called forth.

I am here to be Me. I am here to do what my intuition guides me to do. I cannot conform to what another thinks I "should" be doing. I know that I am not getting it wrong. I know that focussing on the beauty in every situation is what makes my Heart sing.

and I know for sure, that my task in this lifetime is to discover and uncover my Heart. And I am doing it perfectly .....

‎"If there were no beauty in the observer... then he would not find beauty outside. The mere fact that beauty is seen... proves that there is beauty already present in the state of being the observer" ~ Shantanand Saraswati


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Goose .....Bird Card Reading

I am Finished ....I thank the overlighting consciousness of the goose for it's promise of rewards for my long labour, and I hear the applause.

Goose energy materialises wealth. The story of Jack and the Beanstalk, and the goose that lays the golden eggs, has this message implicit in it. It is wealth that has been earned through battling inner giants, that is materialised through the goose. Once the giant has been slain, the energy that up until now been locked up and unusable can pour forth into the world. This brings rich fruits in the form of both material and spiritual wealth.

If you are identifying with the goose as your symbol, then you have probably already experienced the rich harvest that goose energy can represent. Heaven has blessed you with visible effect. Slaying your own giant will have cost you a huge amount of tremendously focused inner effort - to overcome your fears and face the whole truth of yourself - but now that the goal has been reached, life pours that energy back into you with no effort on your part at all. Your friends may call you lucky, but you know better; perhaps only you and God knows quite what slaying that inner giant has really cost you, and you know that what is coming to you now is applause.

Drawing the goose card today signifies the end of a process. It is a triumph. At last you can rest. You are being told by means of this card, that your giant is overcome, and you can now look forward to a time of bountiful blessings and peace. Well done.



Gosh - what a startling card to pull yesterday evening.
I have battled inner giants. Many.

Heaven sure has blessed me beyond measure, and my friends do see me as lucky. I prefer the word blessed.

I am truly blessed.
I am Divinely Guarded and Guided every step of the way.
Even in my darkest hours, I have known - for sure - that it is all perfect. Just the way it is. It cannot be anything else.

Effortless ...life pours things to me effortlessly.

It is a triumph and I do hear the applause.

The first line says it all - I am finished. I am done with the preparation. I have laid the foundations on which to build the life that I desire for me.
I have slain the Giant.

I honour and respect and thank the Giant for being in my Life. Without him and his family, I would not have evolved into Me.

The Giant has made way for me to be fully with my God. That is the big G for me. I retract the capital letter from giant and assign it elsewhere.

God.

I Am.

Divinely Guarded and Guided.

I am ready. For the adventure. For the challenge. For the Joy of Being.


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power

I chose a mother who was a very domineering woman.
She ruled the roost.
No questions asked.
What Mother wanted, Mother got!
Dad gave up his life for her. Whatever she wanted, if he could give it to her, he did.
My sister and I once asked my Dad why he never did what he wanted to do, why he abandoned himself and his dreams for her, because from our perspective, she surely did not appreciate him.
I think we may have struck a nerve, because his response was to inform us that how he chose to live his life was his concern and no-one else's. And we never asked again!

I was recently chatting to a man who said that his mother was very similar. No matter how hard he worked, or shone on the sportsfield - it was never quite enough.
As a man, he is also attracted to very strong women. And like my Dad, he abandons himself in the relationship and lets the woman take charge.

The challenge lies therein -how to be in a relationship with a strong person, without abandoning oneself in the process. Finding the way to retain one's own power and strength within the relationship.

If that balance is not found, one runs the risk of sitting back in later years and wondering what on Earth you have achieved, other than being the general dogsbody for a person who has probably no respect for your sacrifice.

You have then not only robbed yourself of a rich and full life, you have also robbed your partner of the magnificence of who you really are.

If one is happy in being the underdog ...and that is the role you came here to play, then far be it for me or any other to judge your life path.

However ....when it no longer works for you, when you have lost respect for your Self, then it is time to make a move to change.
Claim back your own power! It is yours to use. It is yours.

You are worthy of a magical life. Period.

Claim it!

Live the American Dream

I have been spoon-fed an image of the United States of America and the people of that country.
The movies and the media offer the image of bigger, better, bolder, more beautiful ...the best, really!

Slowly but surely, as I have befriended many Americans via Facebook, I am discovering a whole new image.

Same sex marriages will undermine the institution of marriage ...!

Delete Thomas Jefferson from history books.......!

Medical advice and treatment not exactly cutting edge.......sadly.

It is also the only country in the world that can stage a World Cup event that precludes any other country!

Now I know that there is so much brilliance about the place. Yet so often I am taken aback when a remark leads me to uncover truths that were well hidden from me before.

The land of the free and the home of the brave may just be myths that are purported to the outside world.

You can live The Dream in America ....ask Charlie Sheen - he knows how.

An English friend of mine who lives in the States has so often tried to dispel the myths I have had about it all. However, she can be a little caustic, so I was taking it with a pinch of salt, to counteract the bitterness with which she views the world.

One thing I do recall her telling me that whatever I can imagine, and whatever is beyond my imagination, is readily available. Anything that I will ever need and I will never need is for sale in the States.

I wonder what the truth of it all is.

I will see for myself soon. America ...here I come ...ready or not!

in search of meaning

I was recently introduced to the book Man's Search for Meaning by Victor Frankl. I have to admit that I did not manage to read the whole book.
It is a small book. It probably says more about me than about the author that I was unable to read it all the way through.
Today I met up with someone who I knew when we were children. 40 some years have skidded past since last we said hello.
One would think that catch up chit chat would be the main topic of conversation ...but no.
Straight into the Heart of the matter we went. He has arrived at that point in life which most of us face at some time. The crisis of the Soul. The search for meaning.

It is an honour and a privilege to connect with someone at a time like this. To discuss what really matters to our Hearts and Souls.

Also, it is extremely gratifying to see the willingness to make a change, despite the under-lying fear.

So many of us are trapped in our situations because making a change seems to be too overwhelming. We mistakenly believe that we require another to give us permission to make the changes. Often we need to merely step out of the box and leave it behind. And claim the life we deserve instead of the one we are living.

As a teenager, we decide what career we would like to follow, and head off to college or university to prepare for the life we envisage. We study hard, work hard and eventually begin to enjoy the fruits of that labour ...and then suddenly, some decades later, we discover that the whole of our life is being dictated by the decisions we made as a spotty-faced teenager! How on Earth did that happen, we ask ourselves?

It came about because we work and live unconsciously. It is when we become conscious and awake and aware that we start to question the validity of it all. Of the value of it all. To ourselves. To our Soul. Unless we are engaged with work that is life supportive for our Souls, we will feel unfulfilled.

It is up to us to make the change. When is the right time to do that, we ask? Well, the moment you take the step - that is the right time. The question really is - How long are you prepared to carry on, knowing that you will become more and more Soul-weary?

What is in it for you to stay put? What is in it for you to take the leap of faith and claim a life that will make your Soul sing?

What price are you prepared to pay - to stay? What price are you prepared to pay - to shift?

Do what makes your Heart and Soul sing.

What is your Big Dream? And when are you going to claim it?

Tell me .......because I care. I care.

I am responsible

I have a friend who has addiction problems

He is addicted to alcohol

He is addicted to tobacco

He is addicted to sex and the thrill of the chase

When he eventually landed in the gutter ...really hitting rock bottom ... he knew it was time to take action

He booked himself into a rehab centre. He endured all that they threw at him ....he especially hated that they wrote Grandiosity next to his name on the board ...although he understands it now.

He comes from an exceedingly wealthy background ...was driven off to boarding school in the chauffeur-driven Rolls Royce Silver Cloud at the tender age of eight. Just him. And the driver. And his bags.

Daddy had already left the family. Mummy chose to go off with sister ...leaving him in a lavish setting of the sugarcane farms. Grandparents became his carers.
He often speaks of what a rich environment it was for him to grow up in. A very wealthy family, and the very poor farm workers and their families who became his friends. Culturally an interesting setting. But no mum or dad.

More than a decade ago, he was held up at gunpoint after emptying a safety deposit box at the bank. Filled with family riches. He handed everything over - a sensible action ....asked for them to throw his car and house keys back to him as they sped off. They did. They were only interested in what he had taken from the bank.

He lost a lot of valuable stuff that day ...and yet there is only one thing that he sobbed about. After having graduated from rehab, he was given a medal engraved with three words.

I am responsible

His most treasured possession. Because I knew how much it meant to him, I got a disc engraved with those words and gave it to him. Again he wept. To this day, it is tucked into his wallet. One can no longer see the engraving, but the disc represents the recognition of his achievements. He has not had any alcohol for 15 years.
He has made his life into a good one now. He has risen above his history. He chooses to be happy each day.

I share this story, because there are so many people who are so hooked into their unhappy story, and they do not take responsibility for their own feelings each day. They seek excuses for their continued misery.

My mum did not love me ...
My lover left me..
My dad beat me ...
My teacher said nasty things about me..
The neighbours are cruel to me ...
My husband does not love me ...

Despite all those things - you can choose to find happiness within. Other peoples actions cannot possibly make you happy or sad! Your emotions are your own choice.

If a child falls and scrapes his knees, a loving mum may feel sad. When that same child wins a prize, the mum may feel delighted.
However - it is not the action that causes the emotion - it is the way in which the action is interpreted that gives rise to the emotion.

So, if you had a horrid childhood - bless it. It is part of your past. But it is not an excuse or a reason to drag it around with you each day. Choose to have a happy day today.
If your partner is cruel, make a choice about when it is that you deserve more than that, and take action to change the situation.

You are responsible - for every single thing you think and do!
You are responsible - for every moment of your day!

Choose a life that uplifts, fulfills, inspires, delights..........

Because you can....

Because               ~YOU ARE RESPONSIBLE~

Sin

I wonder how many people have been stoned to death because they have sinned.

I wonder how many people have stoned others to death, or flogged them to death, or burned them at the stake, or used whatever other manner of inhumane action to punish those who have sinned? These people ..the ones who do the punishing ....how many of them did so, knowing that sheer luck had them on their particular side of the scenario. Knowing that they could so easily have been the recipient of this barbarity?

To sin means to miss the mark. Literally. It means that the arrow did not fly to the point at which it was aimed. It went astray. It missed the mark. That is all.

And yet, for thousands of years, many have suffered and lived atrocious lives, because they are bound up in rules and regulations which have to be obeyed, and if they transgress, they have sinned and therefore need to suffer!

Imagine being punished for not covering your head in a place of worship. Imagine having your hand cut off for taking some bread when you are starving.

Where is the humanity in all of that?

I remember a teenager telling me that he HAD to do specific things, otherwise he would have to burn in Hell. He was taught this at his place of worship. He did not choose to be kind and loving and gentle because it was his inner nature ( and yet it IS his inner nature) ...he acted in this way to avoid punishment. He was taken aback when I asked him how he would feel if he was kind just for the sake of being kind, for the joy it brought him. He had never considered it before. There were so many rules and regulations in place that there was no space for free thought.

Sin. Just a whole heap of lies. There is no such thing as sin. It is a concept created for control of others. So often there is no logic behind the rules. Occasionally there are health reasons for the rules. Like not eating pork in the hot climates where there is no refrigeration. But to consider it a sin to eat pork in these times? Where is the logic?

And yet ....

We chose to come to this planet. We chose our lives.... we are merely actors in the plays that we have written in conjunction with others. We play whatever role we choose. We can be Victims. We can be Martyrs. We can be Smother Mother. We can be Kings. We can be Magicians. We can be Healers. We can be anything we choose. No exceptions.

Sin is for those who have not yet learned to think for themselves. For those who have not been taught about critical thinking. It is for those who allow fear-based dogma to run their lives.

How far away from sin have you walked?