I am so delighted that Daughter Number One is enjoying the snow in the northern part of the world, but does it have to be bloody freezing here in Sunny SA as well?
What is it about Sundays that has one being lethargic - especially if it is the first cold Sunday of the year? Stunning awesome sunsets and warm days have been the order of the week - and now Baltic. Ridiculous. I shall continue to blame the cold weather for my lethargy - and not the real reason which is a resistance to doing what needs to be done.
I recently discovered a book that is helping me to clarify what I really, really, really want for my future. The three reallys are because the Oprah show highlighted the author of Eat Pray Love and the advice given by the author is to ask oneself each day what I Really Really Really want - and then the heart answers, and not the head or the (mindless) mind.
What I really really really want is to travel globally, running my inspirational business and having a fabulous partner to share all the excitement with me. Since I have not completed the definition of what I RRR want, I am not certain how important the partner is - I really would like one, but do I RRR want one? Sounds good in theory, so what I RRR want is one who adds to my life in the same measure that I add to his - and since I want an authentic, integrated soul to share my journey, clearly I need to be a fully integrated authentic soul, otherwise it is impossible to attract one into my life.
So, it would seem that I need to put aside my lethargy and do what needs to be done for me to become authentic and integrated. I appreciate this blog today for teaching me and inspiring me to get on with participating im my own life, rather than being a spectator in my own life - which is likely to be the most boring of tasks - watching nothing happen does not appeal.
Sunday 6 April 2008
Thursday 3 April 2008
challenges and friends
How wonderful it is to have friends and challenges in one's life - it certainly enriches one's growth. But friends who are challenges are not much fun. Friendship should be fun and enjoyable and enriching - but exactly how hard should one work?
The bit that is difficult is that, no doubt about it, the part you dislike about a friend is the mirror image of what you do not like about yourself. Gosh, how I hate that! It would be so much simpler and far easier to merely state that so-and-so is really awful, isn't she - and in the process get someone else to agree and collude in the illusion that it is nothing to do with me! Hah! Illusions - that which makes the world go round and almost makes it all seem real.
So what to do about the challenges? The easy option is to blame the other one for being royally stupid, nasty, vain......whatever. But of course, that is not the challenge - in fact, it is so easy to do.
The other option is to look in the mirror.
Excuse me while I take a look............
OK - not a pretty sight. Today I accept that there is a teensy weensy very itty bitty tiny minute microscopic part of me that is judgemental instead of discerning, demanding rather than assertive, and school-marm-ish in place of understanding and compassion.
I forgive myself.
And will attempt to remember this when next I interact with other people. And not only remember, but attempt to put into practice the beautiful and loving side of me which is immensely huge.
I hope that you will help to keep me honest and authentic.
The bit that is difficult is that, no doubt about it, the part you dislike about a friend is the mirror image of what you do not like about yourself. Gosh, how I hate that! It would be so much simpler and far easier to merely state that so-and-so is really awful, isn't she - and in the process get someone else to agree and collude in the illusion that it is nothing to do with me! Hah! Illusions - that which makes the world go round and almost makes it all seem real.
So what to do about the challenges? The easy option is to blame the other one for being royally stupid, nasty, vain......whatever. But of course, that is not the challenge - in fact, it is so easy to do.
The other option is to look in the mirror.
Excuse me while I take a look............
OK - not a pretty sight. Today I accept that there is a teensy weensy very itty bitty tiny minute microscopic part of me that is judgemental instead of discerning, demanding rather than assertive, and school-marm-ish in place of understanding and compassion.
I forgive myself.
And will attempt to remember this when next I interact with other people. And not only remember, but attempt to put into practice the beautiful and loving side of me which is immensely huge.
I hope that you will help to keep me honest and authentic.
Oh the delight to find a moment in which to do this blog thing. I have been reading blogs each day in the paper - never on-line. And it is so much fun to have that momentary glimpse into another persons thinking and writing styles. Have enjoyed the few random posts by Daughter Number One - who will be blessed with my presence at her birthday celebrations this year. The first in many years - perhaps eight or so, if my calculations are correct. If driven to do so, I shall get the right number whilst we eat (hopefully) some stunning chocolate cake.
I am looking forward to the trip - especially the part where I spend many hours watching some different TV shows - and many more hours than that reading and sleeping and resting - all of which sounds busy but is the exact opposite thereof!
I am looking forward to the trip - especially the part where I spend many hours watching some different TV shows - and many more hours than that reading and sleeping and resting - all of which sounds busy but is the exact opposite thereof!
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