my note from the Universe .... uniquely mine

each weekday I get an email from The Universe, my Note from the Universe

I am sure you know of it. if not - it is time to give yourself that particular treat - no calories involved

this week I got the chance to meet the author of the Notes ... delightful man

as part of the workshop that day, each participant had the chance to write a Note from the Universe as an exercise

predictably (well, predictably, because I have been to so many workshops) we randomly swopped the Notes and got our own unique Note....

this is the one I received ....

* I appreciate you because of your honest and sincere nature. Your caring of others

* It fills me with such joy to know that one day you will know your wisdom in the true sense of the word and feel the joy you have brought to others

*I know that soon you will have your own wisdom reach all those that are ready to receive it

Love is all there is

The Universe

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The Cursed What If .....

This weekend I went to meet Mike Dooley - aka The Universe whose byline is Thoughts Become Things - Choose The Good Ones ....

during his workshop he teaches how to create the life that you want to live, how to create the world you want live in  ... and has a simple process that he explains with great humour and lively anecdotes

and he constantly reminds us that we can let go of the Cursed Hows .... that is the job of the Universe. it is never our task to work out the how ....

the past two days have been very challenging for me - as I am in the midst of a family crisis .. of which - ta da! I am the focal point ... well, perhaps not the focal point exactly - but certainly the troublesome, will-not-play-the-game-properly part...

I have the suspicion that this whole drama is not entirely by chance. I do believe we call forth the precise things we need in order for us to choose out next step, the direction in which we currently want to move.

the direction is a moveable feast - one day we want to head west, and off we go - and then, ker-ching! we would really love to explore north, or south, or perhaps even NNW ...  we are curious .... or is that me projecting onto you? if so - I will claim it - I Am Curious ....

now, there is no 'What If' going on when I make that statement. I Am Curious ... I know this to be true. much of my life has been spent uncovering the Great Mystery of life, of how things tick, if they tick, why they tick, who made them tick ... you get the picture.

I can also say - I Am a Woman. no 'What If' pops up here, either. I know it to be true. swiftly skipping through the area of proving it - suffice to say that having produced two children, I am in no doubt about my gender.
hold on a moment! What If I had to look at that claim again - perhaps I should say that I Am Female. that is easy to prove .... What If being Female does not make one a Woman. I have a friend who can talk about that to you, and anyone else, for hours. so, if you would like to discuss the differences between female, woman and feminine, I will give you her contact details. I Am Curious - but not enough to listen to that particular conversation - my eyes kinda glaze over after a while when she gets going ...

I Am ....a daughter
I Am ....a mother
I Am ....a sister
I Am ....a grandmother


but, back to the What Ifs ...

What If my family are right, and I am not a nice person, deep down inside?

What If I am never going to be able to love unconditionally?

What If I do not have a heart? (I Am pretty sure I do, because it is breaking with this drama)

What If I do not rise to the occasion?

What If there is something I have to say that will help another, and I never say it?

What If I let the fear of what other people think, to hold me back?

What If I let fear hold me back from ANYTHING?

What If I hide my light under a bushel, rather than risk scorn or laughter?

What If I judge my Self so harshly that I never do what I came here to do?

The Cursed What If ......

that damned Cursed What If that I have given so much power over the years...
that damned Cursed What If that has got me stuck so often

Well ...

let's see if I can turn this around ....


What If ...I relaxed, focused on what I want in life, and walk or work towards it?

What If ...I came here to do something BIG ....and I did it?

What If ,,,it is my birthright to be magnificent, amazing, intuitive, sensitive, caring?

What If ....people enjoy it when I share what I know?

What If ... I loved all my work ... and it mattered ..to me ..and to others too?

What If ...my friends are right ... that I have something worth sharing with the world?

What If... I Am supposed to impart all the knowledge I have?

What If ... I live a life that is wonderful beyond compare?

What If ... there is a light within me that I release and allow to glow?

What If ......I claimed a Sacred What If ......?

ah - the Sacred What Ifs .....




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being here

there is a reason for being here. whether we fathom it out or not ... the reason - or reasons - still exist.

I have a suspicion that it is a many faceted story. we are here to learn and grow and share and be selfish and be selfless. all of it.

and I believe that there is an underlying reason - to find the way to be happy - despite all the challenges and heartaches we endure. finding our way to happiness, no matter what

this is, in my very seldom humble opinion, the main objective ... to find peace and harmony and joy within the maelstrom that is life on earth

I am sure it can be done. I would love to be able to master it. when I was younger, I would struggle for days or weeks and sometimes even months, to get through some pain, some hurt, or some perceived slight by another - especially if I felt that I was being invalidated and not 'seen' or 'heard'

slowly it gets better. I can almost process my way through some hurtful stuff in an hour, or an afternoon ... depending on what has happened and how good and resilient I am feeling

and seldom do I do it alone. I am blessed to have wonderful friends who can hear me and understand me and can remind me of what I have temporarily forgotten

and that makes me happy ...

which is the main aim of my journey ....

happiness 

is there a better aim, I wonder

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