opening my Heart

In January I met up with an old schoolfriend. It was lovely to be able to reminisce about things, and slowly but surely we started to think about having a relationship. Sounded like a good idea.

Except that he is a fundamentalist Christian.

Not too sure how happily he would have accepted my Buddha statues around the house.

And I could not edit my Self to fit in with his world view.

End of romance.

Then I met another lovely man. Awesome guy. Brilliant catch for the right woman. 

I am not the right woman.

End of that fairy tale ....

And then .....

never in a million years could I have imagined the scenario

and I have a rather vivid imagination!

It was time for me to open my Heart ... and I chose well.

I opened my Heart to another Soul, and the Love that emerged was way beyond anything I have ever experienced.

I am grateful that I allowed my Self the opportunity to trust enough to be vulnerable.

I am grateful for all the Love that I discovered within Me. 

I now know what it feels like to Love. Beyond measure.

I can happily face 2011, knowing that one of my greatest challenges has been met 

I know Me better now.

I have seen Me in a way I had never done before.

and I LOVE it!

Quoting Great Masters

Over the past few decades, I have read voraciously. I had this hunger to understand Why? And How?  When would I understand Life and all of its mysteries?

Day by day, bit by bit, I worked at it. Reading. Listening. Attending courses and workshops in the metaphysical and esoteric realm.

Mystery schools.

Psychic development.

Shamanic workshops.

More reading.

More learning.

More listening.

And quoting. Lots of Great Masters - quoting their wise words which helped me to understand me. And to help me to discover, define and refine Who I Am.

Carolynn Myss

Deepak Chopra

Richard Bach

Winnie the Pooh

The Dalai Lama

Buddha

Christ

Neale Donald Walsh

M. Scott Peck

so many others

such a lot of wisdom they have shared with the world, and me.

I used their words to illustrate points. I referred to them when I could not adequately explain things in the elegant manner they employed.

I used their words as tools.

And I am exceedingly grateful to every one of them.

Now I have noticed a change.

Something is different.

Today I realized that I no longer use their words to back up my own understanding of Life. In the past, I relied on their words to give credence to my words.

That is what has changed. I now use my own words as tools. I now trust my own words sufficiently to make a point or to pursue a discussion. I now give my words equivalent value.

I now have my own tools. I now have my own words.

I can breathe freely now, because I have arrived.